Live Big, Live Bright, Live True to yourself!

Live big, Live bright, live true to yourself but what do I mean when I say this? I have always been enthusiastic with life.  This I portrait with body language and speech! This being said it is where I have had the most issues when other people don’t share my exuberance & enthusiasm especially the way I express it!! Yesterday I had a prime example of this.  I meet up with a friend for a coffee.  As we got chatting I became my enthusiastic self and my voice went up as it always does, with my arms waving around as I was describing something we were talking about.  My friend immediately said “shush, keep your voice down you are very loud others will be looking”!  It immediately closed me off!  I apologized and went quiet and lost any enthusiasm I had!   I felt like I was back at school and being told off by the teacher for talking in class (this happened often). After that I was very careful what I said and how I said it which would have been o.k. but I felt closed down and withdrawn in to myself all spontaneity lost. When I finally got home I reflected on what had happened and realized this was a common pattern throughout my life.  I have a very resonate voice which has been great when dealing with people who are hard of hearing or if I was to be speaking on stage but not so good when I am trying to go un-noticed!  My whisper seems to be a normal speaking voice so normal to others is...